i suck at updating on this site huh.

Tool was awesome, i forgot to mention that in here.

gaahh this TOOL show is taking forever! september 15th will never come! i cant wait to see all my friends there. everyone made sure to get tickets this time around so me and jordan wont be like the only ones this time. i hope they bring the creepy bald contortionist people with them again. 12 more days. i feel like i've already been waiting forever

so i have a question. if you're a bisexual girl...or even just a lesbian i guess, how the hell do you attract another girl? i dont know how i'm supposed to know its ok to "hit on" someone. i guess this is the downside to being attracted to girls and still look like a girl myself. i really dont understand the butch ones. i wish i were attracted to them but i'm just not. whats the point in being attracted to a chick if she looks and acts like a dude anyway? it would make things a lot easier, at least i'd know most of the time if they were fair game. there's a girl i do really like right now, but i'm pretty sure she's straight. is it ok to just ask people about that stuff? i dont want to make them uncomfortable or freak them out or anything. hell i cant even really tell my friends i'm bisexual, except the guys. guys seem to be a lot more laid back about everything.....either that or they're turned on by it. either way, i can talk to my guy friends about it anytime. on the other hand, my girl friends i'm positive have no idea about it. there are just some people i know would never understand, and maybe wont even accept it. i'd just feel so much better about telling people if i had someone, because then at least they'd know i was serious about it and not just being weird and they could get used to it. sigh....i just dont know what to do. shit....being gay sucks....

gah i have so many ideas but my fucking camera is broken. but on a good note, i now have pet rats. i love them they're so adorable. i have 2 boys, Wyatt and Sully. i want to get some pictures of them soon while they're still babies. anyway.....thats all i got going on and thats why i have nothing new.